| ladidahimnotready and other random thoughts about tomorrow |
[21 Aug 2006|08:21pm] |
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by tomorrow I mean the future..After reading Tiff's novel about college these random thoughts just started spewing out. (lalalalala):
I'm not ready. Not ready to start making life-changing choices that could alter the course of my life for good. Not ready. Not ready. Or maybe I don't want to be ready because it would mean that I would HAVE TO MAKE THEM. And I don't want to because I DONT WANT TO MAKE THE WRONG CHOICES.
Is it REALLY this hard? Isn't there an easy way? Sometimes I wish someone would just TELL me what to do. Like how my mother has (from my birth) for lack of a better word, brainwashed me into thinking that I HAVE TO GO TO UP, no more no less. But I already told her that I would take the SATs whether she would pay for it or not. I will not sit back and watch my chances of getting into either RISD or Savannah or even BAUHAUS dwindle away JUST because I didnt try. She says she would never pay for me to "leave her" for college but I have this feeling that IF I get accepted she'll change her mind. What kind of mother wouldnt have a change of heart when
a. your daughter gets into one of the most prestigious colleges in the world
b. AND in the proffession of HER choice
She's got to learn to trust me. She thinks I am going to go there and get knocked up or something incredibly stupid like that. Mother I'm not that dense.
Why can't she get it? Like Penny's mom asked me one time while I was at their house what I wanted to take, and I said straight up "Graphics". She asked me where I want to go and I said abroad but my mom wont let me, I think she felt bad for me so much that she allowed Penny to fuego. Hahahah. I wish she was like Penny's mom in that respect, the things I could learn and experience there not to mention the credibility I would get just by studying there surpasses what I would get here SO MUCH MORE.
I told kuya that if I get a scholarship and mom still said NO I would "run away" because I think it's the best thing for my future.
Somedays I feel ready to take on the world, somedays I want to be 5 years old and eating animal crackers, thats what makes everything so difficult.
IM LOST.
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[26 Jul 2006|07:24pm] |
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Time - Chantal Kreviazuk |
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and it's Wednesday. How odd is that. Another typhoon. OH WELL. Anyway, today we had our english presentation about King Arthur and Merlin, we spiced things up by creating a modern version, we like to call it THE ATRIX.
( pics here! )
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| Lolo should name that boat "Elyse" |
[24 Jul 2006|10:23pm] |
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Just arrived from fuego, I really missed it. It rained most of the time I was there so no swimming or sailing for me :( I was able to take lots of pictures though! Come to think of it, this weekend turned out to be really eventful.
( click to see why )
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| Catching Up |
[17 Jul 2006|08:35pm] |
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hellogoodbye - touch down turn around |
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Been fixing some file glitches on my computer lately. Thats the reason for my absence.
Here are some pics of our enlightening experience with CHI MASTER ANN last wednesday.
She has powers beyond this plane of reality.
( discover ann's powers )
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| You know hell is freezing over when... |
[03 Jul 2006|08:11pm] |
A. Brazil, the world champions lose to France 1-0 in the world cup semi-final. I don't want to keep saying this but, seriously, how DID this happen people?!? Many Brazilians are blaming the coach, Carlos Alberto Parreira who didn't try to change the teams tactics even after the second half! They should have kept Luiz Felipe Scolari, the coach that brought Brazil the world cup in 2002, he moved to Portugal (and THEY got into the quarters!).
B. Rafael Nadal <3 beats Andre Agassi in the third round of Wimbledon which is played on GRASS! Go Rafa! Finally, he's learning how to play good tennis on grass! Never thought it would happen.
C. A Mento can make a liter of coke go BONKERS. Every single person on the planet has got to see this. Brought to you by the genius minds at Eepybird.com
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| the unluckiest day EVER. |
[28 Jun 2006|06:22pm] |
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Today, I don't know, it's seriously the weirdest day I've experienced in a long time. I think the worst luck I've had in life to date.
1. Early morning, I find out that SPAIN, the team I will always support, was knocked out 3-1 by France. I was so confident that we would enter the final eight, I underestimated the power le France since they weren't playing all that well before today. All in all, I'm proud of the Spanish team. They led in their group and was one of the top scoring countries during the first two stages. Maybe, it was just a bad day for the Spanish team, and/or a really good day for the French sqaud. But fine okay, I am so pathetic that I cried.
Sergio Ramos thanking the crowd for the support
Poor Cesc, he looks so pissed and bitter (and yet manages to be HOT)
Iker Casillas thanking the crowd also...
OMG..:( This is the saddest picture ever. Pablo is CRYING.
Cesc Fabregas walking off the field. He looks so defeated..*tear*
Raul (the captain) comfort his teenage teammate Fabregas.
This is my favorite one.It just looks so much like how I feel.
I mean look at those disappointed faces. They worked SO HARD. And to lose just ONCE, WHEN IT MATTERED. :(
2. The sari-sari store near my house ripped me off by selling me a scratched load card . And they wouldn't replace it. The half-naked old man kept saying that I scratched it and I'm the one ripping him off. My mom says he thinks all Filipinos (including me) are swindlers just like him. OH WELL. There goes 300 bucks. W/e.
3. I found out someone got GUNNED DOWN right infront of my house. On the road!
And without knowing it, I sort of witnessed it since I heard the gunshots (at first I thought they were firecrackers). It was about 11 pm, I was memorizing my Fil script and right when I paused to remember the next line I heard about 7 shots fired consecutively and really really quickly. I thought to look out my window. Good thing I didn't though because Tito Luigi said he saw the dead body on the road when he looked out his window. As in flat on the ground DEAD. Turns out, it was a political asassination of the mayor of Iligan or something. It just hit me, its like I heard someone DIE. Life can be so horrible.
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| feeling pink is the new blog! |
[27 Jun 2006|07:07pm] |
Aaww...Aussie lurvvve.
Finally, someone from my list of favorite divorcees has moved ON and remarried. GO TEAM KIDMAN :D
And to grammy-winning country star (his music is good ah!) Keith Urban. Nicole cried
all the way through the wedding according to People.com, Keith did too daw, and it was in an ACTUAL CHURCH. Snaps for Nicole.
In other news, tomorrow, SUPERMAN flies into theaters. If you ask me he's the most
gorgeous Superman ever! I mean come ON, look at that..!!!
OMG. Cas, you have to see this. http://deportes.aol.com/futbol/mundial2006/galerias/e_wives
I'm gonna be part of that someday. WHAHAHA. But somehow (miraculously) I first have to turn
into a supermodel like most of the football wives. GOD. And it seems footballers love to be married,
and unlike hollywood celebs stay that way for long.
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| school quirks and boos for becks. |
[26 Jun 2006|06:23pm] |
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3rd year hasnt been that hectic for our section, and apparently our section only.
Lol poor tiff, marta, and kt, always practicing for something. No, poor me, they're
always practicing. And god, the teachers. Peppermint twest me...do-si-do ples!
Sir Chuck's wisest words (not in any particular order):
1. "Me-L" (he meant mL)
2. "Why are you staring at me like THAT?"
3. "I'm too strong for the chalk."
4. "We're not sure if what they are is they are."
5. "After all, zero don't say anything."
6. "She don't got anything."
7. "For examples.."
8. "It's means to see.."
9. "We do not know what this is in here."
10. "Silence means YES."
11. "YO is yes and no."
12. "If the result is not what you want, it is."
sources: teddy, boom, kay, and fran :D
DOES DAVID BECKHAM SUCK OR WHAT?? Sending the poor Ecuadorians back home to their
mountain-platue, middle-of-the-equator country. Boo for Beckham.
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| new month's resolution |
[25 Jun 2006|09:24pm] |
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So I've decided that I will stop living under a rock and write about whateverthehell.
This is partly so that Cas and Lyz (LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!!!!) will know what on earth is happening to me. Harhar.
First things first. MY HAIR HAS BEEN CHOPPED OFF WITH A RAZOR. Pics to come.
Anyway, the rest tomorrow when something else worth writing down happens.
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